Fears and Phobias? (7)

1 - I'm pretty sure I've written about it before, but I'm hands down, 100% afraid of being alone. Without family or friends or anyone. Aloneness just..petrifies me.

2 - I'm afraid of the future. "I don't know about tomorrow. I just live from day to day." And that's really all anyone can do. Wait for tomorrow, trust the Lord, and see what comes. Sometimes, it can be scary. For me, I can happily say it's been a scary, excitement kind of fear..but..still..there is fear.

3 - I guess this goes along with the last one, but I'm afraid of making the wrong choice. College. Career. Spouse. Home. Church. I worry when it comes to making the wrong choice at a restaurant. So, life-changing major things have me pretty much in total-freakout-mode.

4 - This one's totally random, but I had an awful dream a few nights ago where I didn't get into homeschool camp. My last possible year of homeschool camp. <-- fear.

5 - I'm terrified of scoring on the wrong goal in soccer. Again.

6 - I was really chill with bees. Up until last Sunday. I wasn't feeling well, so I came home early from church. As I was changing, I felt a stabbing pain in my back. At first, I was like "eh, it'll stop hurting soon." Um. No. It just kept on stinging. I started to freak out. Scream. Cry. The whole nine yards. Anyway, I found a bee attached to the inside of my shirt. I was stung three times. How a bee got inside my shirt without me noticing, I'll never know. But, I'm really NOT a fan these days..

7 - I'm scared that they're going to kill of Mary Crawley:PP

Honestly, this one was kinda hard. I'm not brave or anything, but thinking about things you're afraid of is actually really hard.


Tennessee tomorrow. Whadddduppp!